LOTS to catch up on!
Some good!
Some bad...
Some sad.
Lets start off with all of that rolled into one! I LEFT RICKY! Or I guess I should say I kicked his ASS out! We were together 2 years. 2 FRIGGIN YEARS! Before him I had not even made it 10 months. I am soooo happy to be out of that relationship but the hardest part is Shaylee. I miss that little girl so much. I loved her with all my heart and would have done anything for her. I still think about her everyday and it breaks my heart to think of the lies her father is feeding her.
I'll be honest and tell you, he was abusive. Mentally, Emotionally, Physically abusive. DO NOT ever put up with any of that. No one deserves to be treated that way, especially when you tried your hardest to always make the other person happy and all they do is constantly bring you down. I am so much better off without him but it is still very hard because all I knew was him and his ways for 2 years. I will tell you I am far from perfect and I had my faults in the relationship but that still does not give you an excuse to treat someone that way.
He had bought me a laptop so I could start blogging and do my own thing. Problem was, I never had time. Everything was for him and about him. Now that I am single and living alone hopefully I will be able to keep this promise to myself! I love crafting and cooking and fashion and love in general. This will help me a lot to get past my hurt and anger and be able to move on and be me again! I have really been able to see who my true friends are since all of this has happened. I am making sure to edit those bad people out of my life and save the good ones. I will get past this and I am doing everything I can to be a better person again and believe in myself. I know this post was pretty random and confusing I just had to put something. I assure you this will not be a depressing blog!
XOXO,
Rachel
